Real life and Christmas

In the last few weeks I’ve had little time to devote to my side projects (like DartCalc, Character Sheet, Minecraft, Music and so on). Real life (read day job) has been consuming most of my creative energy. This is not a bad thing in any way. As many who know me have heard before I’m one of the lucky ones who works a job I love. It does mean that some things I wanted to get done by Christmas haven’t happened. DartCalc’s new version hasn’t made it. I haven’t finished a song in months. I haven’t gotten a rev1 of CloudBank out. I have learned a lot for my current day-job project, I’ve spent almost 80 hours on it in the last two weeks alone. That’s more steady work than I ever do, and it feels great.

In the middle of the real-life work I’ve been doing Gabe had a birthday (yay!). Christmas is almost here too. I am not ready for Christmas, then again I never am. I have lots of ideas of things I want to get for people, but I rarely get around to actually getting them. I either have the idea too late, or it requires some amount of time that I either don’t have or have devoted to something else. If it were really the thought that counts almost everyone I know would be ecstatic this time of year. Instead I’ll end up getting the normal collection of gifts I think are good enough, and maybe that one or two that really show I thought about it and made it happen.

Normally I would try to make excuses for this behavior. “I’ve been so busy I haven’t had time.” “I couldn’t afford it.” “I would have to have ordered it and I came up with it too late.”┬áThere are probably a hundred of these lame reasons why I don’t do the things I want to do every year. I’m sort of tired of making them and the only person who has ever seemed to care is me. So, instead of spending this holiday season feeling guilty for what I haven’t done yet again I will instead be happy for the things I have done.

Almost every time I go to the local grocery store I buy a bag for the food bank. I’ve given to various non-profits. I know what I am going to get my wife (she’s easy to buy for since she tells you what she wants). I know what I’m going to get for the other people on my list too, save one. So Mom, if you read this before Christmas, tell me what you want! I have holiday plans. I have a date with my wife on Saturday with a babysitter and everything. I’m not stressed out, even though I’m working harder this year that I normally do. I haven’t yet blew up at my children, or let the gloomy skys get me down. Of course, it does help that we’ve been hovering right around 32 degrees every day and have almost no snow. I don’t really need snow in the valley for Christmas anyway. This isn’t a big list, it isn’t an impressive list. It is a list of the things I am going to do this year. Oh ya, and I made a list of the things I’m going to do, instead of only dwelling on what I didn’t get done.

So with that I hope your holiday season is joyous, uneventful, and entertaining. As always, have fun.

~Agathezol

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